In Closing...
Someday, I'm going to get back to Durango, the very place where I realized that I not only could, but would, live the rest of my life without drinking. I'll be wearing the baseball cap the biker gave me (yes, I still treasure it). Sitting on the bank of the Animas River as the train slowly slid by - it was one of the most beautiful moments of my life. And, I will take my wife along. Naturally, she couldn't possibly understand what an incredibly moving experience it was for me, but she can imagine.
I know what you’re going through. I’ve been there. When I was at my lowest, I had all but given up on getting my life back on track - and I was utterly powerlessness against the force of drinking.
Thankfully, I clung to a thread of hope. With strong resolve, embracing good fortune when it appeared, and, looking back, a wife who demonstrated immense courage and strength, I overcame my "best friend" and "sworn enemy." I turned my life around. I remarried the love of my life (30+ years and counting!), reconnected with my children, and have been working for the same company for over 15 years (yes, the same one that sent me to Phoenix week after week all those years ago). Like everyone, I've experienced ups and downs, including the loss of both parents. And through it all, I've lived happily without a drop of alcohol.
You can do it, too.
There is a path forward. I've walked it. It's daunting, terrifying, and seemingly impossible.
But once you start down the path, you'll find it's entirely possible - and incredibly life-changing... and you won't have to change who you are.
In closing, let me reiterate what I said at the very beginning. I am here for you 24/7 should you ever need a friend to talk to, a shoulder to cry on, a soulmate to share a cup of coffee or a meal with, or just someone to spend time with for a while. I promise that if you call me, anytime day or night, I will answer within a couple of rings.
Take that first step, dear friend, and know that I am here for you. I can't do it for you - you have to do it for yourself. But, remember that you aren't alone. I've walked the same path, and I am here for you - and always will be.
Much love, always,
David
Thank you for reading my journey. If you found it compelling and you know someone who is struggling with addiction, please consider passing my story along to him/her.
And, don't lose hope.
DON'T EVER LOSE HOPE.
I truly hope you have a blessed life.
Happily living on a big round ballDecember, 2020